Complacency vs Vulnerability

My defense mechanism against your inconsistency

Is to disregard your demand to be with me physically

Because emotionally you aren't available to me

Still in all you play on my vulnerability

Smothering me with your complacency of hurting me

Knowing that the idea of you, the sight of you, the feel you,

Interrupts my sanity

Triggering my insecurities

Whenever you're not with me

Your Complacency vs my Vulnerability is what scares me

The words you speak weakens me

While your actions towards me reflect savagery

But in retrospect is it my own complacency of you running back to me continuously

That allows you to play on my vulnerability?