I Loved Him, He Loved Me Not

I loved him, He loved me not

He was my greatest high

And my hardest cry

There was no in between with us

That’s how toxically we indulged in lust

We fussed and fought as if we were committed

I often voiced my feelings but his were somehow omitted

Verbally exchanging traumatic energy

Just for him to end up inside of me

Which only led to misunderstandings pacified with intimacy

I loved him for no reason at all

And he loved me not

I flew back to him after just one call

I realized toxicity was our love language

When remaining distant was non existent

He analyzed me so deeply

So he could learn me mentally

And still chose to disregard me emotionally

I loved him but he loved me not